FRUSTRATION

Digital Art done for competition

Digital Art done for competition

This is a piece that I created a little while back. It was some of the first photorealistic works that I did. I am quite fond of the little guys, and despite my newbie status on this type of work at the time- I was happy with how it turned out.

I am posting an older piece because I am feeling very frustrated.

I just got off the phone with my youngest son, David. He is the one I bounce a lot of my ideas off of when it comes to my art. He and his girlfriend, Hannah are amazing artists so I do trust their opinions.I have been staring at my computer monitor for the last four hours, working on a new art piece when he called so it was a welcome break since mostly what I was getting done was feeling like a failure and quite sure I had lost my touch.

The topic of our conversation was artistic frustration, and he assured me that he goes through this same process with every new project that he starts.

I used to be a distance runner, absolutely loved it. I would run 6 miles three times a week, sometimes further if it worked out. The one thing though, the first mile was ALWAYS horrible. It hurt, I wanted to quit and go home, it felt like the run was going to be a total failure and really challenged my work ethic to continue the run. I never understood why this always happened, but it did, in every run I ever did. Once I got past that first mile, and I guess “warmed up”, then the run was fantastic and I couldn’t wait to do another run after I was done.

Well, with my new piece I am about a quarter mile into the run. I hate it, and I want to quit everything, hang up my artist hat, and find a new game.

But, I can’t. I just love doing it too much. And, hopefully- that “artist’s high” will kick in when I get my groove on and things start meshing.

Do you ever feel this way?

I hate that my son goes through the same process, it is a little depressing and frustrating, but perhaps it is the price to pay in this birthing process when we create something from our heart and soul.

Well, I am going back in, three quarters of a mile to go and then life will be good again.

Thanks for stopping by!

Mary Michelle

17 comments

  1. Lisa

    I’ve actually been sick all week and kicking myself for “losing my touch” at writing. I always go up and down, up and down. I love it. I hate it. πŸ˜‰

  2. Great Post –

    We’ve all been there. It’s that moment in time when an art project seems to have gotten the best of us, and we’re stuck. Not knowing what to do, we stumble along, making mistakes, and reworking things until we have an even bigger mess.

  3. Great post (I seldom get past the first mile, so congrats on finding the courage to keep going)! I love this image, and the way the yellow in the leaves brings out the gleam of the cat’s eyes. Gorgeous!

  4. What a great analogy – often I start at a great pace, then slow down in the middle and have to push through to the end. It’s especially hard when I know how the story ends and I have to fill in all the bits that lead to the ending. But you keep going and you get there πŸ™‚ xx

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